woke up early today. been catching up on laundry and watching live soccer online. messi scored again yesterday in barcelona's win. if you're a fb friend of mine, you're probably sick of hearing me talk about him. I can't help it. he's as fun to watch as any footballer I can remember. makes it look so easy. the world cup is just around the corner. I support USA of course, with england being my 2nd favorite. these are the only two teams I can pull for against messi. I believe there's a good chance he and argentina could run away with this one, but I'm hoping we can make a respectable showing. USA will have a good squad out there. will they show up to play is the question.
life has been good since I last blogged. I'm enjoying it. got a new bike about a month ago from a kid I work with. it's an early 70's nishiki cruiser. paid more for lights than I did for the ride. louisville might be more bike friendly than milwaukee. the parks and trails are incredible here. this really is an interesting city. I've been soaking it all in. had a moment of clarity at the river the other day before work when I realized how unappreciative I have been at times. I still miss lake michigan, but the ohio river, especially here, is nothing to scoff at. skills on the longboard are rising. fresh pavement, parking garages, hills in old louisville and downtown. I can't explain the peace I get on the board. my mind is in a zen-like state of awareness when carving up the concrete. the weather is cooperating. been kicking the footbag around with friends. about to start playing in an indoor soccer league. played two games of chess yesterday, 1-1.
went to see sts9 in covington a few weeks ago and then pnuma trio came to town last week. still high from those shows. summer ahead and future travels to smile about. hulaween! borrowed zadie smith's "white teeth" from my brother and am about halfway through it. it's a beautiful story. excellent character development. I can tell I'm going to be a little sad when I finish it. I've been writing lately. some days it's good. some days it's shit. but it's the journey to the source. there's no destination. happy to be alive today. thankful for grace and mercy.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Day 39
going to stop this daily blog. right now, it's healthier for me to utilize the notebook and pen. with everything floating in cyberspace eternity, I have to be careful with what is written here. have much to work on and believe this harms more than helps. plan to use this page again in the future but maybe not to the extent that I have been.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Day 38
I'll not attempt to put today into too many words. my meager words wouldn't do it justice. gethsemani; spoke with my friend there for 2 hrs, walked up the hill, silence. can only remember a few days in life that come anywhere near this one! watched the super bowl at a friend's place tonight. difficult to express what I'm feeling now. gratitude, humility, the desire to be of service!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Day 37
Umphrey's McGee - Setlists
not getting much sleep last night screwed with my head all day. feeling ungrateful for a minute when I got home so I went down the street to hang out with travelers at 2. that helped. watched UK play after that. we looked great today. six double doubles in a row for big cuz! he keeps this up and he's the national player of the year. met with some friend's tonight and listened. everything was ok today when I kept busy, talked with folks about how I felt, stayed out of my head. but when alone, I couldn't seem to get it right. still can't as I write this. have that anxious gut feeling going. not sure why. maybe anticipation of going to show, all of the energy there, then not getting enough rest. also, thinking too much! need to take myself out of the equation and realize I can do nothing about this. seek help, take action, and help others will do it. asking for peace of mind tonight. patience also! that's a big one for me. it all comes down to me trying to run the show, even with small things. it can't be done. awareness of this is good. thankful for that! been looking forward to our trip to gethsemani tomorrow. maybe that has something to do with it also. tomorrow is going to be a big day!
not getting much sleep last night screwed with my head all day. feeling ungrateful for a minute when I got home so I went down the street to hang out with travelers at 2. that helped. watched UK play after that. we looked great today. six double doubles in a row for big cuz! he keeps this up and he's the national player of the year. met with some friend's tonight and listened. everything was ok today when I kept busy, talked with folks about how I felt, stayed out of my head. but when alone, I couldn't seem to get it right. still can't as I write this. have that anxious gut feeling going. not sure why. maybe anticipation of going to show, all of the energy there, then not getting enough rest. also, thinking too much! need to take myself out of the equation and realize I can do nothing about this. seek help, take action, and help others will do it. asking for peace of mind tonight. patience also! that's a big one for me. it all comes down to me trying to run the show, even with small things. it can't be done. awareness of this is good. thankful for that! been looking forward to our trip to gethsemani tomorrow. maybe that has something to do with it also. tomorrow is going to be a big day!
Day 36
worked, came home and ate some food before christina picked me up. went to amanda's new apt, got in her car, coffee, fought traffic but eventually made it to I65 for the journey south. rainy day. found justin and blake in nashville and headed to the theatre. good to meet josh and roger from huntsville. paris '72! made it inside as opening band, moon taxi, was finishing up. beautiful venue inside and out. big floor and small balcony. good crowd but not cramped. lots of dance space. um brought the heat! dance party first set. second ever much obliged meeting at set break. seven of us there for it. beautiful thing for sure! ran into my friends nate and courtney from milw, who live in nasville now, for a minute. jaw dropping second set. jeff coffin on sax for scenes from an italian restaurant cover! before encore, I told josh I was hoping for an andy's last beer. his hopes, wizard burial ground. alb is an old school rarity, but sure enough the first notes of it hit my ears. said bye to bama friends and hit the road. ate at waffle house, then got on 65 towards the ville. rain switched to snow at some point. got back in the early morn. good times had! quote of the day; "that note doesn't exist. he (jake) made that one up just now."
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Day 35
good day today. went to J. Gumbo's again. good, cheap food. excited about going to see umphreys in nashville tomorrow!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Day 32
the sun shone bright on this first day of february. felt nice to close my eyes and see orange. ate at thai kitchen tonight with steve and scotty, then we went to meet with some friends. listened to the new vampire weekend album. I like their sound! didn't hear enough to decide if it's as good as the one from a few years ago. introduced to people under the stairs also. nice beats from L.A. ran into my old friend whitney. that was unexpected. we were good friends in middle and high school. small world. she dates a friend of mine. great to see her!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Day 31
stayed busy all day. my friend shane, not the one who pretend died a few weeks ago, and I reached our market st. destination at noon. walked home, then went to help paint a restaurant some folks I know are opening. bought the newest matisyahu cd at target with a gift card I'd forgotten about. I'll be listening to it for the next few weeks with small breaks thrown in. really dig track 8! kid a was today's soundtrack before the purchase. met with family and friends tonight. came home and had a nice phone convo. blessed day fo sho!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Day 30
woke up this morning to enough snow that we had reschedule the gethsemani trip for next sunday. went back to bed for 4 or 5 hours. had some breakfast at the whiz before the UK game. went to a new place with some friends tonight. grateful that I did.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Day 29
starting to snow. ready to sleep, wake up, see what we got. not really feeling it right now. anxious and tired.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Day 28
two instances of synchronicity today that I can't explain. something is definitely going on, and it's pretty damn cool! more please. had coffee tonight with some friends and then to a birthday. beautiful stuff! supposed to snow. hoping we don't get so much that we'll have to reschedule our trek to gethsemani saturday.
Day 27
long day. no complaints. I just heard the sad news that howard zinn died today. to quote him, "don't mourn, organize." going to catch up on some sleep now.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Day 26
about to get some rest. the haters are going to be out in full force tomorrow. we lost at s. carolina in '97 also. from here forward, it's the march to march. is any team better than us on a neutral court? nah.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Day 25
as of today, we are the unanimous # 1 team in both polls! at south carolina tomorrow night. good day today! ate some tacos tonight. one of my favorite author's, neil gaiman, cat zoe died today. she'd been suffering for a while and finally had to go. friends and fans have been following what's been going on through twitter and neil's blog http://journal.neilgaiman.com/. this tech age we live in blows my mind. global consciousness and it's connection to the web is growing exponentially. you're a cute cat zoe. say hi to scarlet for me.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Day 24
truly blessed. woke up and went to a good friend's birthday. enjoyed the ride to, being there, and the ride home. took a dream filled nap. met with folks tonight. came home to see the end of the best playoff game so far. favre, best ever IMO, has a tendency to throw a dangerous pass when the pressure is on. he lived up to this again tonight. will he return? I bet he does. cats # 1 tomorrow for the first time since 2003.
Day 23
woke up around 10:30 and went to 10th and market. nice start to the day for sure! came home, took a shower, then watched the cats play their best game of the year. our defense was incredible today. orton was blocking shots before they were thought of. big cuz lost a tooth. great game for miller! we will be # 1 in the ap poll come monday and we couldn't be more deserving of it after the performance this afternoon. went to the quarterly tonight for the first time. saw folks I wanted to see. rollerskating for a little while after it. left early due to hunger and sleepiness. warp speed day.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Day 22
trip to the smokies got postponed. shannon got hung up working in Tell City and we wouldn't have gotten down there early enough to do what was needed. I was bummed out about it for a little while, but I know what I have to do today when feeling let down. knowing this doesn't mean that I do it instinctively, but at least I got there eventually. progress. watched the first zombie halloween movie this afternoon. I'd seen it before but must have fallen asleep on it back then. met with friends, then to the mexican place beside the great escape. split some fajitas. excellent beans, good rice, but the guac was lacking. thumbs up on the pico also. the 10:30 after that. good times I'm thankful I was here for!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Day 21
I turned off my alarm this morning and fell asleep again, which is unusual. woke up in time to walk around in the rain at work. rubber soul was the album of my shower and time at home today. parents were in town. we had pizza at spinelli's. it was great to see them! they dropped me off at quills for coffee with a friend. went to sf meeting and out with justin and steve while they ate. talked on the phone with my brother when I got home. my trip obviously got delayed. we're leaving tomorrow morning, which worked out for the best (see above for reasons why that is). now we get to drive during the day, possibly not in the rain, and stop at cumberland falls on the way. going to be a beautiful drive to the destination. shannon tells me he often sees bears from the cabin. hoping that will be the case! pavement about to play their first show since they broke up in '99. get to see one of my favorite bands for the first time in the near future I'm thinking. maybe they'll play the roo!
Day 20
what a beautiful day I had today! woke up and talked to my hp, mm, then went to work. stayed out of the way. afternoon conversation was fun! met with family and friends tonight. revolver was listened to. excited about tomorrow! get to see my folks after work, then headed to gatlinburg for a few days with my new job. haven't been to the mts since montana 7/08. looking forward to seeing some bears. silence and lack of light pollution expected. will be back in the ville for no name on sunday.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Day 18
Happy birthday MLK JR! the weather forecasts were dead wrong here today. the sunny 50's never materialized. took a nap after work. went to meet with fam tonight. grateful that I did! texas lost, which means we're # 1 next week if we beat arkansas at rupp on saturday.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Day 17
Sage is alive and well! she found her way home somehow and was under their porch this morning. slept in this morning due to being out late. raining here, then it cleared up in the afternoon. listened to pavement throughout the day. best rock band of the 90's IMO! cowboys/vikes game wasn't the battle I thought it would be. I'll never pull for the vikes, but I'm happy for favre when he has the kind of game he had today. wish he was still with the Jets so I could root for him. random comment of the day = I love soy milk (especially on cereal and in coffee). moved forward with some positive action this afternoon, then met with good folks and shared some hope tonight.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Day 16
beautiful day! big turnout, good times, lots of chili. 3 hrs of bowling afterwards with people I love. one of the games was a lifetime best for me; 5 strikes in a row, a few spares and almost broke 200. still no word about sage. she's weighing on my mind, but I know there's nothing I can do so I'm staying positive.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Day 15
grateful for another friday! looking forward to chilipalooza tomorrow night. saw on facebook that my dog sage ran away from home. this bothers me. I hope she's warm and safe. I hate to think she might be scared and cold outside in the wisco winter. going to have trouble sleeping tonight.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Day 14
threw away my old toothbrush and used a new one for the first time a few minutes ago. had a really refreshing brush due to this. my bro steve picked me up earlier to go hang with peeps I wanted to see. good times for sure! heard that blackrock cd for the first time earlier. it's the black keys with different hip hop artists on each track. neo soul! check it out. came home and watched rob zombie's halloween II with zach. zombie continues to take the slasher genre to a higher level with solid plots, (sur)realism, believable characters, original music, and brutality that only fans of horror films can appreciate. his sound effects are dead on. he uses unique camera angles and his lighting gives his films a classic feel. he wrote/directed/produced again. no surprise that harvey and bob weinstein are involved with what he is doing. they have a history of being able to spot true talent (kevin smith, tarantino). it was warm here today. got into the 40's and felt like spring had arrived.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Day 13
had some chess pie at the homemade ice cream and pie kitchen. mmm! just caught the end of vandy's one point win at bama on espn360.com. looking forward to tomorrow!
Day 12
charles woodson voted NFL defensive player of the year today! cats refuse to lose again in big win at florida. bledsoe, orton, big cuz, psquared, wall, dodson, and miller are looking like our core. throw liggins in there and we've got a nice 8 player rotation. It's been a while since we had a team that was this fun to watch. grateful to be in KY! I don't care how many tears mcgwire sheds, he's still rationalizing and being dishonest about what he did. even for those who own up to it, I don't see some of the best players of the past 20 years (bonds, sosa, a-rod, clemmens) ever getting into the hall. fine with me. pete rose deserves to be there before any of the guys mentioned above. more proof of what a joke of a commissioner bud selig is. checked out the newest simpsons last night. best one in a while IMO. I'm a sucker for krusty episodes. I took some positive action this afternoon and heard good stuff tonight! going to sleep well.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 11
woke up to no coffee today. a bummer for a few seconds, but I have no complaints. so much to be grateful for! walked around historic downtown buildings during work. if you live here and haven't been in the starks building, check it out. came home from work and fell asleep reading a tim sandlin book. hung around good folks tonight. listening to coast to coast now. going to read before sleep. oh yeah, frodo lives...and so does shane.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Day 10
slept in until 11 this morning and woke up refreshed. a friend that I go to for suggestions came over and spoke with me for about an hour. that got my day off to a great start. did some laundry and watched patriots/ravens, anxiously waiting for the packer game. first half was pathetic! we made too many mistakes on offense and our defense looked as bad as it has all year. we staged an impressive comeback in the second half, but continued to struggle defensively. lucky to be in overtime after the cards missed what would have been a game winning field goal. it just wasn't our day. I'm happy that we made the playoffs and have some positives to build on for next season. clay matthews had an excellent rookie season and charles woodson should be a contender for NFL defensive player of the year. we need to work on our offensive line and figure out why the defense fell apart at times. UT beat Kansas today, which leaves us and Texas as the only undefeated teams.
met with family tonight then came home. I'm worried about a good friend of mine but know that there's nothing I can do or say to make things better. continuing to pray about it will give me peace in time. listening to modest mouse "this is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about". what a great album! missed the 20th yr simpsons celebration tonight. heard it was funny. hopefully find it online tomorrow. I'm going to read for a while before checking out what kind of dreams my brain has in store for me tonight.
met with family tonight then came home. I'm worried about a good friend of mine but know that there's nothing I can do or say to make things better. continuing to pray about it will give me peace in time. listening to modest mouse "this is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about". what a great album! missed the 20th yr simpsons celebration tonight. heard it was funny. hopefully find it online tomorrow. I'm going to read for a while before checking out what kind of dreams my brain has in store for me tonight.
Day 9
the new star trek movie was well done! hung out at Tascha's this afternoon with family, but the Wii bowling showdown with Jade was rescheduled again. she fears my skills! steve told me RJD2 is coming to headliner's next month. we're excited about that. listened to Built To Spill in his car. good stuff that I hadn't heard in a while. came home and watched the first half of the UK game here, then went to Wick's for the second half and the Bengals/Jets game. great pizza there with a generous amount of yummy cheese. geogia played well today and kept it close but we got another win! at florida tuesday. got some coffee, then met with saturday night crew. was going bowling, but tired and wanted to watch football so I came home. wish the eagles could have won at dallas. been looking forward to the packer game tomorrow all week. we're going to be tough to beat I believe.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Day 8
My first Louisville snow yesterday and today! for as long as it's lasted, we probably only got 3-4 inches. I want to do some sledding this weekend. another kick ass friday night doing the same thing we've been doing on this night for the last few months. this week I've been listening to ben folds live and steely dan's "the royal scam" more than anything else. heard Jim Croce's operator the other day as I was leaving work then the sam bush song I quote below on my walk home. It seems like I hear songs right when I need to hear them on a daily. I was even appreciating Korn the other night. meeting up with family/friends tomorrow afternoon then Wii bowling with Tascha and Jade. Dr. Moody was on coast to coast am last night. I read "life after life" years ago. interesting interview for sure! excited about the cats starting sec play tomorrow and the packers playoff game sunday. about to watch the new Star Trek movie or fall asleep doing so. live long and prosper my friends!
"face tomorrow, like yesterday. face tomorrow, come what may."
"face tomorrow, like yesterday. face tomorrow, come what may."
Friday, January 8, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Day 6
I took a two hour nap after work today. I had a strange dream that I got my mandolin back. It's in good hands in Bowling Green. went with family to meet up with some friends in Indiana tonight. that was the highlight of my day! good times had. I got some pretty exciting news last night that I'll write more about in the next few days. It's nice to be able to watch the daily show & colbert again on hulu. going to read for a little while and then check out last night's episodes.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Day 5
I enjoy jumping into the air when the elevator starts it's descent. if really feeling it, multiple jumps occur. went to the top of the national city building today. the woman I was talking with said, "I come to work early so I can stand in front of the window and soak it all in". what an incredible view! In another building's elevator, a cop and I actually had a pleasant conversation. wow, that's progress for me. I made a delivery to a lawyer who told me I forgot my pen as I was leaving. honestly, my mind went to old behavior and said I need that pen. but just for a millisecond. I told him it was his and he told me to keep it. little stuff like this has been happening since I saw that king of clubs yesterday. but did it really just begin happening? nah. enhanced awareness since sunday. I'll lose it as quickly as I attained it if I don't continue the work. saw the slugger museum for the first time today. the bat in front rises above the building. look forward to checking it and the ali museum out in the future.
I was in da U.P. and northwoods this time last year for two weeks on one of those ice fishing trips where we never made it onto the lake. talked about it a lot though. we did go on a moose hunt with my friend's uncle. you know how they say "so quiet you can hear a pin drop"? you couldn't hear a truck drop from the sky in some of the drifts there. I've always been a runner, but it was never more than a temporary fix. on the beginning of my final run, in one of the most beautiful places east of the rockies, that bitter morass of self pity was on me every waking moment. so grateful that I can sit still today!
"'Cause I went from negative to positive
And it's all... (It's all good)" Biggie
I was in da U.P. and northwoods this time last year for two weeks on one of those ice fishing trips where we never made it onto the lake. talked about it a lot though. we did go on a moose hunt with my friend's uncle. you know how they say "so quiet you can hear a pin drop"? you couldn't hear a truck drop from the sky in some of the drifts there. I've always been a runner, but it was never more than a temporary fix. on the beginning of my final run, in one of the most beautiful places east of the rockies, that bitter morass of self pity was on me every waking moment. so grateful that I can sit still today!
"'Cause I went from negative to positive
And it's all... (It's all good)" Biggie
Day 4
Woke up feeling good this morning. talked/listened, then walked downtown for work. saw a king of clubs on the ground beside york towers. cold day, but overreaction to it runs rampant here. mild winter day compared to what I'm used to in the midwest. wish it would snow! went to the hospital to visit anthony. I thought spinal meningitis was just a ween song these days, but apparently people rarely come down with it. he said, "man, Jon, I hope you never feel as bad as this. when I finally came to the hospital saturday, I told them I thought I was dying." that probably doesn't sound funny, but we had a good laugh. came home after that to sad news. my friend shane was found dead last night. I hope he's found some peace. you know your brothers love you shane. went and met up with family/friends tonight. came home and ate some tacos. going to lay in bed and watch yesterday's simpson's episode on hulu now.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Day 3
I feel good about the day I just had. got a lot off my chest and learned some stuff about myself. took a short nap late in the afternoon and then met with family & friends at 8:15. heard a lot of good stuff. one of my best friends got back to town, good to catch up.
been listening to "yankee hotel foxtrot" for the past few days. one of the best albums ever IMO! tweedy is one of the greatest songwriters of my generation and a genius in the studio. so many great lines from the album; "picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen" has been stuck in my head of late. I thought it would be fun to have all the lyrics below with song titles deleted so they all flow together. if you didn't know I'm a dork, now you do.
I am an American aquarium drinker
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let go of you
Let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
Let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers
This is not a joke so please stop smiling
What was I thinking when I said it didn't hurt
I want to glide through those brown eyes dreaming
Take you from the inside, baby hold on tight
You were so right when you said I've been drinking
What was I thinking when we said good night
I want to hold you in the Bible-black predawn
You're quite a quiet, domino, bury me now
Take off your band-aid cause I don't believe in touchdowns
What was I thinking when we said hello
I always thought that if I held you tightly
You'd always love me like you did back then
Then I fell asleep and the city kept blinking
What was I thinking when I let you back in
I am trying to break your heart
I am trying to break your heart
But still I'd be lying if I said it wasn't easy
I am trying to break your heart
Disposable Dixie cup drinking
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let go of you
(Loves you)
I'm the man who loves you
I need a camera
To my eye
To my eye, reminding
Which lies have I been hiding
Which echoes belong
I've counted out
The days to see how far
I've driven in the dark
With echoes in my heart
Phone my family
Tell 'em I'm lost on the sidewalk
And no it's not okay
I smashed a camera
I wanna know why
To my eye, deciding
Which lies have I been hiding
Which echoes belong
I'm counting on
A heart I know by heart
To walk me through this war
Where memories distort
Phone my family
Tell 'em I'm lost on the sidewalk
And no it's not okay
I've counted out
And no one knows how far (tell 'em I'm lost)
I've driven in the dark (tell 'em I'm lost)
With echoes in my heart (tell 'em I'm lost)
Phone my family, tell 'em I'm lost
Yeah, I'm lost
And no it's not okay
No it's not okay
No it's not okay
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery stars
Honey, kisses, clouds of fluff
Shoulders shrugging off
Cheer up, honey, I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with radio cures
Electronic surgical words
Picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery stars
Honey, kisses, clouds of fluff
Picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
There's a war on
You're gonna lose
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
Just watching the miles flying by
Just watching the miles flying by
You are not my typewriter
But you could be my demon
Moving forward through the flaming doors
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
Okay?
You have to lose
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
You have to die
You have to die
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
Okay?
Jesus, don't cry
You can rely on me, honey
You can combine anything you want
I'll be around
You were right about the stars
Each one is a setting sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Don't cry
You can rely on me honey
You can come by any time you want
I'll be around
You were right about the stars
Each one is a setting sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Voices whine
Skyscrapers are scraping together
Your voice is smoking
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Our love
Our love
Our love is all we have
Our love
Our love is all of God's money
Everyone is a burning sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Voices whine
Skyscrapers are scraping together
Your voice is smoking
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
cash machine is blue and green
For a hundred in twenties and a small service fee
I could spend three dollars and sixty-three cents
On Diet Coca-Cola and unlit cigarettes
I wonder why we listen to poets
When nobody gives a fuck
How hot and sorrowful
This machine begs for luck
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I want a good life
With a nose for things
A fresh wind and bright sky
To enjoy my suffering
A hole without a key
If I break my tongue
Speaking of tomorrow
How will it ever come?
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I'm down on my hands and knees
Every time the doorbell rings
I shake like a toothache
When I hear myself sing
All my lies are only wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I would like to salute
The ashes of American flags
And all the fallen leaves
Filling up shopping bags
Oh I sincerely miss those heavy metal bands
I used to go see on the landing in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love
Shiny shiny pants and bleached blond hair
A double kick drum by the river in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
Another and another
She fell in love
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
Unlock my body and move myself to dance
Moving warm liquid, flowing blowing glass
Classical music blasting masks are ringing in my ears
Oh I sincerely miss those heavy metal bands
I used to go see on the landing in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love with another
She fell in love
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
All I can see is black and white
And white and pink with blades of blue
That lay between the words I think on a page
I was meaning to send to
You I couldn't tell if it'd bring my heart
The way I wanted when I started
Writing this letter to you
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
All I can be is a busy sea
Of spinning wheels and hands that feel for
Stones to throw and feet that run but
Come back home
It made no difference
Ever known, it made no difference
Ever known to me
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
All I can see is black and white
And white and pink with blades of blue
That lay between the words I think on a page
I was meaning to send to
You I couldn't tell if it'd bring my heart
The way I wanted when I started
Writing this letter to you
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
If I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
If I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
Crazy rides rockets
Wears a magic wand
Empty out your pockets
Words without a song
I myself have found a real rival in myself
I am hoping for a re-arrival of my health
Sleeping eye sockets
Baby suck your thumb
I'll keep you in my locket
A string I never strum
It's become so obvious
You are so oblivious to yourself
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
Every song is a comeback
Every moment's a little bit later
Lazy locomotives
Wherever you may roll
I think you have no motive
I know you have no home
It's become so obvious
You are so oblivious to yourself
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
Every song is a comeback
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
It's my father's voice dreaming of
Sailors sailing off in the morning
For the air-conditioned rooms
At the top of the stairs
His jaw's been broken
His bandage is wrapped too tight
His fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
There's bourbon on the breath
Of the singer you love so much
He takes all his words from the books
That you don't read anyway
His jaw's been broken
His bandage is wrapped too tight
His fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
Someone ties a bow
In my backyard to show me love
My voice is climbing walls
Smoking and I want love
My jaw's been broken
My heart is wrapped in ice
My fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
And it makes no difference to me
How they cried all over overseas
When it's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
They cried all over overseas
It makes no difference to me
When it's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
It's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
I'm not going outside
I'm not going outside
(Yankee...hotel...foxtrot)
How can I convince you it's me I don't like
And not be so indifferent to the look in your eyes
When I've always been distant
And I've always told lies for love
I'm bound by these choices so hard to make
I'm bound by the feeling so easy to fake
None of this is real
Enough to take me from you
Oh I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
I know this isn't what you were wanting me to say
How can I get closer and be further away
When the truth
Proves it's beautiful to lie
Oh I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
Not about you
Not about you
Not about you
It's not about you
been listening to "yankee hotel foxtrot" for the past few days. one of the best albums ever IMO! tweedy is one of the greatest songwriters of my generation and a genius in the studio. so many great lines from the album; "picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen" has been stuck in my head of late. I thought it would be fun to have all the lyrics below with song titles deleted so they all flow together. if you didn't know I'm a dork, now you do.
I am an American aquarium drinker
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let go of you
Let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
Let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers
This is not a joke so please stop smiling
What was I thinking when I said it didn't hurt
I want to glide through those brown eyes dreaming
Take you from the inside, baby hold on tight
You were so right when you said I've been drinking
What was I thinking when we said good night
I want to hold you in the Bible-black predawn
You're quite a quiet, domino, bury me now
Take off your band-aid cause I don't believe in touchdowns
What was I thinking when we said hello
I always thought that if I held you tightly
You'd always love me like you did back then
Then I fell asleep and the city kept blinking
What was I thinking when I let you back in
I am trying to break your heart
I am trying to break your heart
But still I'd be lying if I said it wasn't easy
I am trying to break your heart
Disposable Dixie cup drinking
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let go of you
(Loves you)
I'm the man who loves you
I need a camera
To my eye
To my eye, reminding
Which lies have I been hiding
Which echoes belong
I've counted out
The days to see how far
I've driven in the dark
With echoes in my heart
Phone my family
Tell 'em I'm lost on the sidewalk
And no it's not okay
I smashed a camera
I wanna know why
To my eye, deciding
Which lies have I been hiding
Which echoes belong
I'm counting on
A heart I know by heart
To walk me through this war
Where memories distort
Phone my family
Tell 'em I'm lost on the sidewalk
And no it's not okay
I've counted out
And no one knows how far (tell 'em I'm lost)
I've driven in the dark (tell 'em I'm lost)
With echoes in my heart (tell 'em I'm lost)
Phone my family, tell 'em I'm lost
Yeah, I'm lost
And no it's not okay
No it's not okay
No it's not okay
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery stars
Honey, kisses, clouds of fluff
Shoulders shrugging off
Cheer up, honey, I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with radio cures
Electronic surgical words
Picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery stars
Honey, kisses, clouds of fluff
Picking apples for the kings and queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey I hope you can
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
It's a war on war
There's a war on
You're gonna lose
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
Just watching the miles flying by
Just watching the miles flying by
You are not my typewriter
But you could be my demon
Moving forward through the flaming doors
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
Okay?
You have to lose
You have to lose
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
You have to die
You have to die
You have to learn how to die
If you want to want to be alive
Okay?
Jesus, don't cry
You can rely on me, honey
You can combine anything you want
I'll be around
You were right about the stars
Each one is a setting sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Don't cry
You can rely on me honey
You can come by any time you want
I'll be around
You were right about the stars
Each one is a setting sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Voices whine
Skyscrapers are scraping together
Your voice is smoking
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Our love
Our love
Our love is all we have
Our love
Our love is all of God's money
Everyone is a burning sun
Tall buildings shake
Voices escape singing sad sad songs
Tuned to chords
Strung down your cheeks
Bitter melodies turning your orbit around
Voices whine
Skyscrapers are scraping together
Your voice is smoking
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
Last cigarettes are all you can get
Turning your orbit around
cash machine is blue and green
For a hundred in twenties and a small service fee
I could spend three dollars and sixty-three cents
On Diet Coca-Cola and unlit cigarettes
I wonder why we listen to poets
When nobody gives a fuck
How hot and sorrowful
This machine begs for luck
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I want a good life
With a nose for things
A fresh wind and bright sky
To enjoy my suffering
A hole without a key
If I break my tongue
Speaking of tomorrow
How will it ever come?
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I'm down on my hands and knees
Every time the doorbell rings
I shake like a toothache
When I hear myself sing
All my lies are only wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I would like to salute
The ashes of American flags
And all the fallen leaves
Filling up shopping bags
Oh I sincerely miss those heavy metal bands
I used to go see on the landing in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love
Shiny shiny pants and bleached blond hair
A double kick drum by the river in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
Another and another
She fell in love
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
Unlock my body and move myself to dance
Moving warm liquid, flowing blowing glass
Classical music blasting masks are ringing in my ears
Oh I sincerely miss those heavy metal bands
I used to go see on the landing in the summer
She fell in love with the drummer
She fell in love with another
She fell in love
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
I miss the innocence I've known
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
Playing Kiss covers beautiful and stoned
All I can see is black and white
And white and pink with blades of blue
That lay between the words I think on a page
I was meaning to send to
You I couldn't tell if it'd bring my heart
The way I wanted when I started
Writing this letter to you
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
All I can be is a busy sea
Of spinning wheels and hands that feel for
Stones to throw and feet that run but
Come back home
It made no difference
Ever known, it made no difference
Ever known to me
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
All I can see is black and white
And white and pink with blades of blue
That lay between the words I think on a page
I was meaning to send to
You I couldn't tell if it'd bring my heart
The way I wanted when I started
Writing this letter to you
But if I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
If I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
If I could you know I would
Just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
I'm the man who loves you
Crazy rides rockets
Wears a magic wand
Empty out your pockets
Words without a song
I myself have found a real rival in myself
I am hoping for a re-arrival of my health
Sleeping eye sockets
Baby suck your thumb
I'll keep you in my locket
A string I never strum
It's become so obvious
You are so oblivious to yourself
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
Every song is a comeback
Every moment's a little bit later
Lazy locomotives
Wherever you may roll
I think you have no motive
I know you have no home
It's become so obvious
You are so oblivious to yourself
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
Every song is a comeback
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Every moment's a little bit later
Tied in a knot
But I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
I'm not
Gonna get caught
Calling a pot kettle black
It's my father's voice dreaming of
Sailors sailing off in the morning
For the air-conditioned rooms
At the top of the stairs
His jaw's been broken
His bandage is wrapped too tight
His fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
There's bourbon on the breath
Of the singer you love so much
He takes all his words from the books
That you don't read anyway
His jaw's been broken
His bandage is wrapped too tight
His fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
Someone ties a bow
In my backyard to show me love
My voice is climbing walls
Smoking and I want love
My jaw's been broken
My heart is wrapped in ice
My fangs have been pulled
And I really want to see you tonight
And it makes no difference to me
How they cried all over overseas
When it's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
They cried all over overseas
It makes no difference to me
When it's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
It's hot in the poor places tonight
I'm not going outside
I'm not going outside
I'm not going outside
(Yankee...hotel...foxtrot)
How can I convince you it's me I don't like
And not be so indifferent to the look in your eyes
When I've always been distant
And I've always told lies for love
I'm bound by these choices so hard to make
I'm bound by the feeling so easy to fake
None of this is real
Enough to take me from you
Oh I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
I know this isn't what you were wanting me to say
How can I get closer and be further away
When the truth
Proves it's beautiful to lie
Oh I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
Not about you
Not about you
Not about you
It's not about you
Day 2
great day today! watched UK game at amanda's with a bunch of friends. good people around me, tasty food, and we played a sloppy game but still managed to beat Louisville. I just moved to the ville in June, so this was my first UK/UL game here. It's been the most important pre-march game for me since the early 80's, but living in this divided town, it being Coach Cal's first year, and this ridiculous team we have made it, the anticipation and the actual game, more intense than usual. both teams played like shit honestly, but a win is a win. 18 points, 18 boards for big cuz! talked to my brother, who was in rupp, at halftime. another record attendance today of course. this is the best team we've had since '96! It's gonna be a fun season!
met at 8, then journeyed through town with amanda and christina looking for a robot machine that would cooperate with our request. no luck there, but traveling always has it's advantages. fat jimmy's for pizza then went bowling. good times had! big gratitude I feel! thank you!
back at home now listening to coast to coast and winding down before sleep. important day tomorrow!
met at 8, then journeyed through town with amanda and christina looking for a robot machine that would cooperate with our request. no luck there, but traveling always has it's advantages. fat jimmy's for pizza then went bowling. good times had! big gratitude I feel! thank you!
back at home now listening to coast to coast and winding down before sleep. important day tomorrow!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Day 1
It begins. I've taken too much time off. I'll crawl at first and then scare most of you off by June or July, if there's anyone to scare. maybe not. I would tell you to stick around for the ride, but motion sickness is a possibility and some of you might be friendsomine. check back for random words and other foolishness and maybe by 2011 delusional fiction will flow.
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