Day 5

I enjoy jumping into the air when the elevator starts it's descent. if really feeling it, multiple jumps occur. went to the top of the national city building today. the woman I was talking with said, "I come to work early so I can stand in front of the window and soak it all in". what an incredible view! In another building's elevator, a cop and I actually had a pleasant conversation. wow, that's progress for me. I made a delivery to a lawyer who told me I forgot my pen as I was leaving. honestly, my mind went to old behavior and said I need that pen. but just for a millisecond. I told him it was his and he told me to keep it. little stuff like this has been happening since I saw that king of clubs yesterday. but did it really just begin happening? nah. enhanced awareness since sunday. I'll lose it as quickly as I attained it if I don't continue the work. saw the slugger museum for the first time today. the bat in front rises above the building. look forward to checking it and the ali museum out in the future.
I was in da U.P. and northwoods this time last year for two weeks on one of those ice fishing trips where we never made it onto the lake. talked about it a lot though. we did go on a moose hunt with my friend's uncle. you know how they say "so quiet you can hear a pin drop"? you couldn't hear a truck drop from the sky in some of the drifts there. I've always been a runner, but it was never more than a temporary fix. on the beginning of my final run, in one of the most beautiful places east of the rockies, that bitter morass of self pity was on me every waking moment. so grateful that I can sit still today!
"'Cause I went from negative to positive
And it's all... (It's all good)" Biggie