Day 39

going to stop this daily blog. right now, it's healthier for me to utilize the notebook and pen. with everything floating in cyberspace eternity, I have to be careful with what is written here. have much to work on and believe this harms more than helps. plan to use this page again in the future but maybe not to the extent that I have been.

Day 38

I'll not attempt to put today into too many words. my meager words wouldn't do it justice. gethsemani; spoke with my friend there for 2 hrs, walked up the hill, silence. can only remember a few days in life that come anywhere near this one! watched the super bowl at a friend's place tonight. difficult to express what I'm feeling now. gratitude, humility, the desire to be of service!

Day 37

Umphrey's McGee - Setlists

not getting much sleep last night screwed with my head all day. feeling ungrateful for a minute when I got home so I went down the street to hang out with travelers at 2. that helped. watched UK play after that. we looked great today. six double doubles in a row for big cuz! he keeps this up and he's the national player of the year. met with some friend's tonight and listened. everything was ok today when I kept busy, talked with folks about how I felt, stayed out of my head. but when alone, I couldn't seem to get it right. still can't as I write this. have that anxious gut feeling going. not sure why. maybe anticipation of going to show, all of the energy there, then not getting enough rest. also, thinking too much! need to take myself out of the equation and realize I can do nothing about this. seek help, take action, and help others will do it. asking for peace of mind tonight. patience also! that's a big one for me. it all comes down to me trying to run the show, even with small things. it can't be done. awareness of this is good. thankful for that! been looking forward to our trip to gethsemani tomorrow. maybe that has something to do with it also. tomorrow is going to be a big day!

Day 36

worked, came home and ate some food before christina picked me up. went to amanda's new apt, got in her car, coffee, fought traffic but eventually made it to I65 for the journey south. rainy day. found justin and blake in nashville and headed to the theatre. good to meet josh and roger from huntsville. paris '72! made it inside as opening band, moon taxi, was finishing up. beautiful venue inside and out. big floor and small balcony. good crowd but not cramped. lots of dance space. um brought the heat! dance party first set. second ever much obliged meeting at set break. seven of us there for it. beautiful thing for sure! ran into my friends nate and courtney from milw, who live in nasville now, for a minute. jaw dropping second set. jeff coffin on sax for scenes from an italian restaurant cover! before encore, I told josh I was hoping for an andy's last beer. his hopes, wizard burial ground. alb is an old school rarity, but sure enough the first notes of it hit my ears. said bye to bama friends and hit the road. ate at waffle house, then got on 65 towards the ville. rain switched to snow at some point. got back in the early morn. good times had! quote of the day; "that note doesn't exist. he (jake) made that one up just now."

Day 35

good day today. went to J. Gumbo's again. good, cheap food. excited about going to see umphreys in nashville tomorrow!

Day 34

too late to write this, so I'm going to bed. had a beautiful day today!

Day 33

busy but productive day. going to sleep.

Day 32

the sun shone bright on this first day of february. felt nice to close my eyes and see orange. ate at thai kitchen tonight with steve and scotty, then we went to meet with some friends. listened to the new vampire weekend album. I like their sound! didn't hear enough to decide if it's as good as the one from a few years ago. introduced to people under the stairs also. nice beats from L.A. ran into my old friend whitney. that was unexpected. we were good friends in middle and high school. small world. she dates a friend of mine. great to see her!

Day 31

stayed busy all day. my friend shane, not the one who pretend died a few weeks ago, and I reached our market st. destination at noon. walked home, then went to help paint a restaurant some folks I know are opening. bought the newest matisyahu cd at target with a gift card I'd forgotten about. I'll be listening to it for the next few weeks with small breaks thrown in. really dig track 8! kid a was today's soundtrack before the purchase. met with family and friends tonight. came home and had a nice phone convo. blessed day fo sho!